i edited the post as i remembered the calling for my thoughts.

i caught up with quite some pri sch mates which i havent seen for a long time.

they're basically either in poly or jc now.
yes yes. you're in hci, nice top school. but to think of it, isnt that all there is to it? and seriously, you didnt even take the o lvls, how do u know u actually deserve a place.
as i caught up with those old mates, many of them are accomplished musicians, sportsmen, school leaders, living their lives to the fullest.
what about yubin then? really as i backtrack, i havent achieved anything at all over the 4 years in secondary school. you embrace that lazy attitude of yours and get all so proud of it but at the end of the day have you ever thought about how it kills all the potential achievements you could have had in your life? its been 4 years now and all i do is just, well, there isnt anything i achieved that really is worth mentioning.

you got into hiphop, but stopped after 1/2 a year.
you went for badminton lessons, but stopped after 2 years.
you picked up the acoustic guitar, but switched to bass in less than a month.
and you are completing neglecting bass now.

and vivid images of that brief spell at volleyball in primary school solidified in my mind. you were improving fast. the coach liked it. you quitted.
your teammate who used to learn from you, he became captain of his secondary school team.


what are you really capable of then?