The end of a chapter, the beginning of a story

I though it'd be good to do a little updating on my blog.

A-levels went pretty normal. I do hope my hard work pays off somehow. Then again, I'm very sure that even if I were destined to face disappointment, I will not succumb to absolute dejection for I have already done what I could.

Prom was fun, but it kinda ended way too fast, way too soon. Took the pictures, had the laughs. In the end, you're just going to have to move on, for life has so much more to offer. Take pride in what you've done, be happy because you've been where you've been. I will always look back at these memories with delight and satisfaction.

Post-As is just totally overrated... or maybe not so if I hadn't been investing my efforts into crafting personal essays that ultimately might not even warrant me that dream university education. You have only yourself to blame for your prelim results.

Still, I toll, for I am tired of living life with regrets. I'll do what I can to sway fate in my favour (yes I'm pretty much a proponent of free-will).

Sometimes, I read about the lives of successful applicants to all the top schools. I feel inadequate, inferior. I find myself consumed by envy and despondence.

Have I not done anything meaningful in my time? Am I simply not there yet?

I refuse to believe that, thus in resolution I endeavour.
I just hope it isn't way too late.

Lastly, I would life to add a bit on how much I love my class. 2 years - I wouldn't have had it any other way. We might not keep in touch forever, but the memories I shall forever hold dear.

With that, I say bring it on, 2011.

YUB

p.s SHANGHAI, TW WOOHOOHOO.

k 1 week over... chem p3 was the dream start its so hard my dick pales in comparison.

gp was the usual uncertainty... but the feeling's that i did better than prelims, just hope the marker's nice =/

bio was simple enough but math was so easy its ridiculous lucky i didnt spend much time studying.

kk mr ng is right, it doesnt feel so bad once it has started. you just waiting for the days to pass.

kk now ima do some chem salvaging..

and there's always econs. i needa nail that shit once and for all

K ALL THE BEST YUB

Alright it's almost time (:

At this point in time, I would like to express how unbelievably happy and contented I am with my life.

After all, when else can you only focus on studying without any other pressing worries requiring more immediate attention?

Ok just jk fml lets hope i survive.


YUB

Revelation born in a sea of anguish

sometimes you really get mindfucked by results. Its perfectly fine not to do well when you have so willingly resigned to your fate after the paper.

What hits you the hardest would be the anomalies that occur out of nowhere. They emerge and strike fear and horror into your unprepared, feeble heart. Who would have thought?

But thats perfectly fine with me too. I like the challenge. The agony is only gonna last a few days, after which i'm sure im gonna be filled with so much angst i could picture myself plotting the letter 'A's on my results slip.

WATCH MEH.

on a side note, i really enjoyed the badminton session together. A 7G guys get-together definitely provides the best therapy to my mundane life as of now.
A great bunch of mates. We might not stay together for eternity, but you guys have surely secured a reservation in my memories.

oh well back to work...

I'll be ready for prelims this time, the feeling of being well-prepared evokes such joy in me ahhhhh~ :D

gosh, who am i kidding.

Still alive, though barely

hey sup sup! im back with some dread.

tml's gonna be the last day of formal college life and it sucks i know. and i have plenty of reminders in the form of rants from many that it sucks too. but we'll tide over this period of hardship. (:

i shall not talk about the things i'll miss. Rather, i choose to reminisce in satisfaction the many happy memories hwach has filled me with.

let tml be a day filled with happiness and crazy stuff.

but really, this might be just another masquerade, a brave attempt to shield my heart from the obvious.

after all, i've spent the whole night feeling real empty. the sense of longing is slowly intoxicating my mind.

but i shall not be overwhelmed. a great battle lies ahead.

and boy am i excited.

YU BIN

hey supppp blog

i just watched 500 days of summer and its (Y) made me ponder like some frog pond.

anw famine camp just ended, i shan't rant about the negatives cos its over and its for a good cause i hope. but i am a tad disappointed as next year im prolly gonna be in NS and this would prolly be my last one and look how it turned out :(

oh well, i've had my cheap thrills along the way.

there you go, cheap thrills.

you evil sun of a beach.

sometimes i believe the extrovert part of me is depriving my inner soul of the introspection i really need.
after all, life isnt about a continuous supply of lame jokes and fooling around every day.
we need to think deep and thats what we're given a brain for.
we need to feel richness and thats what we're given a heart for.
im not telling myself to stop the rubbish bcos its a part of me. i do take after my mother in that we both are really out-going.
however, its more about the balance i should strike between superficial dealings with others and serious cultivation of reliance and trust in a strong friendship.

i guess when study stress gets to you, you really think alot about life?

then again, you've hardly started revising, havent you?

yubin


BTW ISAAC I KNOW YOU STALK SO PLEASE TAG YOU MUDABITCH.

uhgluahla

that was the 1st word that came to my mind when i thought of arbitrary retardation.

SO MUCH HAS happened omg.

1st and foreplay, floorball.

it has all come to a sad conclusion. one that is filled with dread of an abrupt end to all the sweat and toil and fun. how i wished i had one more year.

but looking back at all the rubbish we've had, all the joy and ecstasy, the thrill from learning new tricks, the lovely acquaintances. these are the elements that make up my periodic table.

i really hope the juniors can better our achievement next year (ITS NOT THAT HARD I REALISED LOL)

with that been said, HC FLOORBALL, you've left a huge imprint in my heart, one that would never be eroded. <3 stay as one guys.

SAT was okay, but i didnt finish 3 questions i guess that might be fatal? lets hope i at least hit 2100

Chem SPA was easy and i really finished right on the dot. crazy fug

NEXT week will be the hectic one, 2 STJs in 2 days, a birthday party, BIO SPA(_|_)

but hey, hows life gonna pass if its like zen garden everyday?

at least i get some zen in the morning cos i listen to music from my creative zen on the bus. HAHAHAHA (laugh please).

i think DAISO's the perfect playground for our creative imagination. never have i felt that mixing and matching a goodie bag can be so demanding on my EQ.

But the more you think with your heart instead of your mind, the sweeter the outcome's gonna be. this effort's for you mum, for none other is equally deserving. <3

HOPE I SURVIVE THIS YEAR OMG.

YUB

TOMORROW.

it all begins.

this might not be befitting of a clash between titans,

but he with grit, determination, willpower and genius shall prevail.

come on hc floorball.

for i am so god darn excited.

been reading blogs of many and im really very impressed by the level of optimism some exude despite having the odds pinned so mercilessly against them.

its a really important virtue (optimism) that boy, you seem to lack sometimes. i've been prone to feeling down in the face of minor complications recently and that certainly isnt a good sign.

time to think positive, feel good, discard that facade and attain self-actualisation (wow maslow)

right, i've just gotten back my rotten results for blocks and i refuse to pollute my blog by inputting those horrendous alphabets.

guess i needa work twice as hard now. i have great aims for A's after all.

pw gave me smth to cheer about, the majority getting A shan't stop me from rejoicing at my achievement!

NEXT WEEK.

omg nats are starting and boy im really sexcited dao bao.

though its the king we're facing first, we shan't buckle under this titanic challenge.
i'm adamant about claiming this victory, and god bless our keeper - we need you with us so please clearance please ):

and i hope SPAs dun clash with the games...

time to feel inspired, motivated, and brim with joy and confidence like how i used to.

YUBIN

hey now, what'cha yellin' for

blocks tests are over for a week already. no surprises so far i sorta expected my math result.

and that was my best subject (:

right school's been real monotonous as usual. guess thats the year 2 depression. glad im getting cheap thrills here and there, and making random friends that seem to provide me more of such.

staying optimistic and sleeping more helps too so guys out there sleep early if u dun wanna pms!

i think im officially sacked from the japanese tour guiding job. blame it on yourself for your lackadaisical attitude. ):

well there goes my only source of stable income. the possibility of that endofyear taiwan trip suddenly seems comparable to my topping the class for prelims.

i've begun to settle down and get my priorities right. after nearly one and a half years i say its about time no?

after all, 5As and overseas uni are definitely not just a dream. i can definitely do this.

and we have hell lotta JTS/STJ due to our having 2 jr classes woot so secks. hahah

well i always hear from teachers that our class is very special and bonded. but honestly on closer inspection of the class relations i very sadly conclude that the presumed unity is nothing but a mere illusion resulting from a bunch of lively individuals.

don't get me wrong, im not hating, nor lamenting for lamentation's sake.
i hope to see change.

i wanna see us meeting up for class dinner once a week 5 months after A's just like how our snr class does.

SAT in a month! if i score well who knows how much easier university apps will be.
i really wanna study abroad. the exp is therapeutic at the very least.

and i can certainly contemplate myself thrashing the paper.

come its only 7 months do yourself proud kiddo.

BIN

a pinch of fatigue, spontaneously drizzled with memories, marinated in delight

BLOCKS D:

haha okay i've kept all the unhappiness in one line.

cooking has been FUN! really relished every moment of the process.

and i cant believe i only just saw 7G's class LJ. i always thought only the gossip blog existed.

oh dear the memories, our POP seemed like just yesterday, when apollo was so majestically yellow.

and all the crazy stuff we did as a class.

everything has toned down by a lot.

Inevitably, maybe. For the better?

That would really be up to your own interpretation.

In his desperate bid to rush for time,
to feed as plenty the stomachs as achievable,
the use of pepper and salt was alluded.
The chef scorned at the relative size of the garnishes,
as compared to the nutritional joy a wholesome bite of raw meat could offer.
The stomach savoured the bulk,
but the bite had no joy.
The mouthful resembles a bunch of party balloons,
which gloom in its mere possession of the colours of black and white.


This dish is called Life.

yubin the world-class master of culinary delights

hohoho

so tempted to bomb the kitchen though blocks are right after march hols? :DD








simple and easy, fantastic 5 for a great getaway from my hectic melancholy (:

i do hope i have enough time though...

yubin

guilt and all the accompanying laughter please

for starters, i would like declare that i'm back to my old habit of not starting sentences with capital letters, though i would make every effort to punctuate. (holding shift or slamming the caps lock is just too troublesome for my feeble willpower.)

alright, GP. This is really one tough nut to crack. Yes, harder than those i had after lunch today.
sometimes i really don't know how i can possibly improve for this subject. its easy to convince yourself to read more, but the other subjects havent exactly been the friendliest companions to this poor, neglected one.

thats not really the point of today's input. well, in short, i think im embarking on the phase of the year when i begin to neglect everything else and study, or at least attempt to.

im not proud of it seriously, but walking out of the exam hall feeling like a complete fucktard for no apparent reason isnt exactly the most awesome sensation to kick-start your day with.

i find myself dragging my spirit along like a helium balloon threatening to escape my grip and fly off to the horizon.

i just couldnt do anything right for today, and its not the 1st time i've been thrown into such a predicament.

the effed up bit is, whenever i feel like this, i just wanna go home and study and trap myself within an impenetrable emotional barrier.

dude, sounds like you've got the post menstrual stress thing. without the menstruation.

maybe its the soya. ionno.

so i homed and slept for 4 hours, missing what could have been a kickass dinner with some awesome lovelies. its was a god-sent, a stress ball in every sense.

i missed it baby. all because you couldnt get your feelings right in one afternoon.

you were weary, dreary, listless, and a combination of all the synonyms of negative feelings that the english language has to offer. and all this, for a reason you don't even know.

about time i wrote about this, because i've been getting such feelings all too often nowadays.

i miss those days last year, when shit comes out of my mouth more readily than it escapes my rear, when i could be happy-go-lucky about everything. when theres always a tomorrow for something, when everyone's genuine interest in having fun meant that you've got a shopping bag's worth of reasons to push your bum to that gigantic compound on bukit timah road.

maybe this is the transition to adulthood, just that i hardly fathomed it to be as debilitating as that of men morphing into werewolves.

it really sucks doesn't it, knowing you have to survive the rest of the year with such frequent emotional uncertainty.

yubin

oh yeah

Tag board's history, and I have no idea how to make it current affair.

I could bitch all day about this template and how i screwed up a saturday night on this when i could have finished all the hw in the world.

DRAMAFEST

This event was damn secks, i take my hat off to all the directors. I personally liked Apollo's for its innately implicit plot portrayed in an explicit manner. Its really a work of a prodigy, for sometimes you do not get plays half as good at two times the price.

Artemis's was cheesy, well done David, if only the ambience was more suitable for the voices.

Now, now, this post was actually merely for the thrill of peppering my new blogskin with tasteless seasoning, but it turned out to be quite the delicacy.

School's being really a chore. I need more time at home to study, seriously.
And its getting late so i shall update soon. I have age-old stories from the ancient times about my journey with the dinosaurs so please tune in soon.

YUBIN

p.s. I've gotta get the features fixed on this skin or i swear ima skin the creator.
p.p.s I needa finish math and chem tml so i can have the dinner i promised =///

CRAZY BITCH KICK ASS OMG. im learning the chords NOW.

laughoutloud i just typed in my NRIC for blogger login ben dan yi ge.

okay i guess since my bday just passed i should blog now that i'm 18 and legal and secksual. (srsly no link im blardee tired).

Recently, I've been reading random blogs and I've come to the conclusion that most people around me type in English of considerable competency. Hence i shall punctuate properly and begin my sentences with a reluctant tap on "Caps Lock".

OK. I'm really too lazy to upload any birthday related photos as i've always been saving photos for one sudden kaboom of a photo post.

It was fun, simple and spent with lovely people, of whom i really want to credit the incredible individuals with whom i've spent the night on 22nd with - my family members.
Sometimes, just sitting at the dining table with a cutter in hand and a candle in view, drowned peacefully in the melodious familiarity of the birthday tune, could make one feel like the most wonderful person on earth.

Thanks too, to all those who have wished me a happy year ahead, and the 2 lovely people who has brought to my attention that MOF is a great place to dine at, albeit the false illusion of its economical value (i only had to pay for GST like boomzsx secks bomb). But thanks tan POH CHAN (omg im still laughing) and meanmean.

And thankyou class, for the cake and constant bombardment with your dazzling spamming of the birthday song.

Well i thought i had the birthday luck, but it only lasted for... 2 days?
Lady luck dumped me for someone else now i'm a sad boy who's gonna sit at some corner and draw circles.

ANd school's been much of a chore, sometimes i look at the J1 floorballers and how quickly they improve (with the amount of time they have) and lament on the late establishment of the CCA. Why can't i have seniors to look up to sian.

And A'divs coming, better train 10 times harder cos i certainly think that 18-6 wasnt very pretty.

LOL and wayne, if your reading this, i'm sure u enjoyed your foreign invasion of hwach on friday. We know why.

Okay i shall finish my hw fast so i wouldnt have to reject the fun outdoors twice like today D: losing my life like edward cullen who has already lost his.

YUBIN

today was kaboom the year has been kind to me so far =|

saturday was crazy i hosted 2 groups of jap students in one day thats liek 8 hrs omg i didnt even have enough energy left to shop with clem and ern just went home straight with lich. but jap ppl are just "BOOMZXS" like seriously the most awesome, friendliest and appreciative people in the world wooohoo.

ok that aside, i've been enjoying the angel-mortal thing so far, guess they're right in saying that you'll only come to enjoy such stuff in j2 when any sort of entertainment can now serve as that tiny bit of sanctuary in a mugging hell-hole.

AND I STILL DO NOT KNOW WHOS MY ANGEL FROM LAST YEAR OMG LA. should have replied D: k nvm i shall ask my seniors who have graduated and half of whom have gone shooting for garment

i realised that after one ENTIRE year in JC the number of lecktures i have paid attn to can rly be quantified by my five long fingers.

but the current bio lecturer is really good omg! i understand bio for the 1st time in my life and thats just awesome dao bao manzx.

kk i shall go finish some hw tonight tml i still have to shop for clothes with the rest after celebrations and POP.

jaa, happy new year!

yubin

sometimes you think too much boy.

My feeble attempt at upping that post count.

CNY's coming and im hardly excited. c'mon, blocks and shit.

haiz, now theres a cca open house to worry about. i seriously hope i do a good job organising this event.

and i have to sign up for SATs.

and check out prospective universities and how to enroll.

basically im acidic.

aww c'mon you're turning 18 soon.

secks booze drive get high cheer up puhlease.

and orientation! omg looking at the J1s make me relive those days (sorta). i feel younger =/

japanese tour guiding job again this weekend!

yub

sometimes it really does take the stench of being stuck in another's shoes for you to realise that the smell is indeed unbearable.

I haven't blogged for so long i must've turned caucasian.

its 2010 i needed to remind myself that, and i'm doing this in favour of scribbing on a long forgone piece of paper with some math on it.

but hell yeah im not gonna bring up the negativity.

i've got travel plans woohoo.

after taiwan at the end of this year, im most prolly going xiamen again pay a visit to that dear nanny of mine <3

then train to shanghai and pray that the expo isnt over.

and hopefully try to catch a train/boat/plane (urgh) to south korean. i needa check out the comestic technology of that country and how it manifests itself into human flesh affectionately known as S.N.S.D.

if the korea thing doesnt work out i'll definitely wannna go to canada. take a rail ride across the 2nd biggest piece of mud in the world definitely sounds better of a blast than al qaeda.

so then, in this year where im surely gonna be imprisoned by "HWA CHONG INSTITUTION, EST 19...", i'm going to set aside new year resolutions for once.

1. realise the above travel mamas
2. 5As for these year's subjects in A's
3. be a good boy (ain't that lovely)
more to come...

i shall pop that cherry.. flavoured champagne at the end of this year after A's so i'll wait.

yub